In this post, there are so
many messages that I could send. Too many things that I could say. It is hard
to limit the writing to one specific topic.... Rather, get it down to one over
all meaning..
I think I have one though...
That being? Not giving up.. Here is the story..
So after a lifetime of doing
things that only ended in a struggle.. Heartbreak.. Nothing.. Less than
nothing.. The literal definition of "I quit", is, for a good while, how I felt.
Though I have changed that
frame of mind a long time ago, if I had not, I would not have the opportunity
that I do today. I still smile in amazement over the last few days and how
things have went..
I went to an unscheduled
meeting between two people. A fly on the wall as it would be. No input. No
questions. Just there.. The end of the meeting showed a different light. That
light slowly over the last few days has gotten brighter and brighter, focused
on me.
I had the pleasure of
reaching yet another realization. The first meeting, led to me being invited to
another later that night at one of the most amazing hidden places, The Warf...
In the middle of this get together, a light show started.
The music was put together
flawlessly and the lights only added to it. Lighted silhouettes, shapes, colors,
programmed flashing all made for a night that I will never forget. That is not
what made the night though.
Throughout the show, in the
company of truly one of a kind minds seeking to know more about me, I got lost
in the motorized light directly above my head.. Why? Even when the light itself
was not on, it still moved.
Even though I sat in a small shadow, the light
still shined directly on me.
Applied meaning? After
deciding to never give up, I never stopped moving. Even though I may have had
nothing. Things may have seemed hopeless. My energy had been shut off, I kept
moving. The light may have been taken away, but it was only until it was my
turn in rotation..
All I had to do was wait. Be
patient. Not give up, on me. Not the chase of a job, money, something better,
just me. Every time the light passed my face, though briefly, not giving up is
all that I could think of and how lucky I am to have come into the strength to
do so.
Light is based in transferring
energy. Something that cannot be created or destroyed. Potential or kinetic. I,
You, are the same in some applied thought. Giving up should never be something
that is followed through with. Learn, grow, live but don’t give up.
Be it a part of an entire
light show or an independent performance, if only you, be.. The one thing that
refuses to cut the energy to your light. Better days are truly around the
corner. For years I was told, as we all are, it is darkest before the light. It
gets worse before it gets better. Those are statements that are so hard to
believe in. Though it’s only one half. Giving up in one form or another stops
so many people from shinning.
The possibilities are
endless pending never giving up on yourself refusing to give up in life.
"But you don’t understand, step in my shoes, it’s easy to say, you’re not
me", I have heard and said them all. This truth, my truth, your truth is
still the same. Not giving up on who you are has the possibility, with all the
variables, to be one of, if not the hardest decision you as a person will have
to make and live with, but that does not mean it is not possible.
That simple light became
much bigger than itself by giving me the words to explain how
important it is to not give up. Your light will always shine as long as you
feed it potential energy. Even if your energy is potential, not moving. Never giving up will only show means to make it kinetic again.
I hope this will help if only one person understand the meaning to not giving up..
This is only one part on a topic that I will always write about. Giving up means so much more than just giving up.
You are someone.
Important.
Just never give up on refusing to give up.
